108. Anticipation Living
I don’t know if this ever happens to you, but lately I’ve been doing some anticipation living. By that I mean that I seem to be going through my days thinking, “Now if I can just get through this event, or through that day…then I can relax.” Except as soon as that benchmark date has been reached, there is another one about which I am saying “Now if I can just get to that point…then I can relax.”
I’m trying to slow myself down a little and quit making so many commitments but I haven’t totally cured myself yet. At this point in between these dates, I’m trying to find time to do some breathing. Then I’m working on pulling back slightly from making more dates that I would then have to anticipate and feel pressure about.
I want to get to the point where I live in the present, in the here and now. Perhaps it’s a matter of figuring out just exactly what it is that I want to be doing with my days and my time—and then stick to it.
I’ll make a date next week to figure that out. Oh-oh, I’m feeling the pressure already.
