253. Step Close…..But
This song that I wrote is true of me. I’m sure it’s true of others too. Sometimes I call it the step close syndrome. I want closeness—oops I don’t want it—but yes, I do—but actually no. Here’s the song:
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Step close, I want you,
Step close, I want you near,
Step close, I want you,
I want you here.
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Oh no, I’m feeling surrounded,
Step back, I can’t breathe,
Step back, I made a mistake
And I want you to leave.
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Hold me–I need you,
Hold me in your arms so tight,
Hold me–I need you,
And it feels so right.
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Let go, I’m going to be smothered,
Let go, I’ve got to be free,
Let go, I’m being absorbed
And I cannot be me.
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Just when I think I know what I’m wanting,
Just when I think I’m starting to care,
Just when I think I’ve finally found
A person with whom I can share—
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Then it starts—I split down the middle,
Then it starts—I push you away,
Then my being starts acting double,
Come here. No, don’t stay.
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Yes, No. I can’t believe myself and what I say,
Yes, No, Yes, No—Be here, go away.
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Don’t touch, I have to have space but
Do touch, I want you so.
It doesn’t make any sense,
Yes, No, Come, Go, Yes. No.
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© Copyright 1983 by Ann Freeman Price
